What you seek, you will eventually find
Reflections about creating, looking and finding and simply hungry dreaming to achieve
Unbreakable belief, sometimes it comes to me as such a high; I could walk up a mountain back and forth and add a second time just to prove myself more. It’s not even a wave, it feels like a tsunami of faith, complete hunger. Where is my food of soul? I will promise to pay you but i won’t; Give me what is mine.
How to balance belief in oneself? Extreme one sinks into selfishness, the low one puts you in a state of constant belittling and victimizing of self, and the medium one makes you stumble between the first two; you never took a complete side, since you couldn’t even choose one to settle, as none of them have complete benefits without doubt.
It’s in curiosity, in whatever someone you admire or at least get inspired by does, their doing can’t be so different from ours; even our hunger is the same but the feasting is what sets everyone apart. Some peoples light shines brighter than other while they try; I am one that wants my light to shine bright but as everyone we can’t dictate it for ourselves, it’s an inherent light that can’t be cultivated.
Matter of seeking, I’ve seen how seeking bad brings you horrors but seeking good is so slow; it’s meant to be tasteful and I am aware of how to be pleasured by a path but knowing doesn’t equal acceptance. Do I want what I want now? I look around and see it palpable, that what i currently have will fade; a foot here and three fingers out there, in the there of what will come.
I wake some days with my throat itching, a weight in my chest that simply wants to be poured; The absolute itch to create, to formalize a feeling. Put commas and dots into a void of energy, it’s spacious, waiting to be created into a form (art, writing, content, poetry, music, whatever resonates with you). I am sure I am not the only one experiencing this, but it’s such a spacious space that sometimes you have no clue what to make out of it.
Profound pouring, pour two cups of water. One for you and one for whoever you please, just make sure they will water you with a quarter of the shared cup of water at least.
Hope you enjoyed my stream of thoughts, it was so random i just wanted to write so desprerately. Fingers crossed it’s enjoyable.